I hate me

I love you for you

I hate me for me

causing a separation between we

Wanting to be close yet not suffocating

Independent dependent on still relating

New bonds wanted by me to be creating

Old habits needs to be sedating

A future to look forward to

A past to reflect *regret upon

a present for us to belong

better with you

This is just let you know I hope
that God will bless in your life
as you have a blessing in mine

I hope for a touch of the divine
and am grateful you're my wife
even if I maybe sappy and a bit of a bloke

Whenever you are around
my feet slightly lift off the ground
The clouds I can easily walk upon for
When you're away, it's you I long for

You are my luck charm
I love to hold you in my arms

October 18th

without the fluff, we say we have had enuff

something more substantial to pre-occupy

what will inspire us to pass the time by?

What purpose drives you in your life?

What makes you soar above the strife?

I cannot provide the answers you seek

Stagnation in solitude will send an odor - reek

Play with the words, and scramble them up

dredge in the mire and deliver from muck

I hate when i don't give a *&%$ or a #@$% !!

Enclosed

A letter is bound and confined by an envelope
Rooms but defined by the walls that surround
One knows their place when standing on the ground
Or the wind in their face running on a downhill's slope.

Just a man, a working man zombie
Just know my past holds my future
Testify to the fact the habits that hold me. Sure,
I know the chains that bind me

Self-imposed, self-contained
Self-less acts, less of self each day
A coin lost in its cracks, less each day
Have I the drive to break these chains?

A ballad binds the bounds of rhyme
Tredding tirelessly in the tracks of time

Appendix added additional angst
Chains choke the chances not chanced
Gains from a gamble not second-glanced
What is real? Will I feel? As I kneel...

Fly butterfly

you just u

This here

-May 2011

all the way

Your lips touch mine
Oh baby, so divine
I am so glad I met you
I will never forget you

No matter what comes our way
Your sweet caress
Oh baby, I am blessed
I am in love with you baby
All the way with no maybes
Drive me crazy all the way

Unique like Haley’s comet
Just for you a love sonnet


-july 6, 2011

hate the habits that haunt

i glance back and all I see are ghosts

shadows dancing in the sunlight just out of view
cannot go back and get a re-do
the past is haunting, stuck on what now to do

i want to daydream
and hope tomorrow's better
i can feel it
a change in the weather
everyone keeps moving on
so why am I staying still
and why do i feel
I am singing the same song
instead of moving on

my heart is breaking and you don't see the hurt
my heart is racing and things are all a blurr
cannot seem to focus and get past the fact
baby, i want you but i know you are not coming back

i want to daydream
and hope tomorrow's better
i can feel it
a change in the weather
everyone keeps moving on
so why am I staying still
and why do i feel
I am singing the same song
instead of moving on

things I ought

outpouring onto the page

paging to the past
i created the bars and i created the cage

bird is not singing in captivity
its' soul bleeding to be free
wings clipped and cant fly away
looks out the window to freedom every day

sincerely, truly, desparately
pleading, needing, seceding
wanting, haunting, daunting

stream of thoughts
trail of tears
face my fears
dreams i've not

stuck in the present

I sift the ashes of the past

dredging up things of the past
damage the future while dredging
heart broken no matter what

how deep is this cut
how long before it heals
how long before I trust what is real
should i move on, I am hedging

half past a quarter to eleven
now ten to the hour of three
time crawls when it is just me
me versus the past, who will outlast?

dark days

When all I see is the dark, lonely road ahead

how can I hope for the future uncertain?
Clouds are forming and a storm is coming
The dark days are not over, not far from over

God, Where is your guidance? I am relying on you
There is no other path out of this blinding mist
The beauty has faded into a murky gray
Happiness. Joy. Where have you gone?

The morning birds chirp their ever cheerful song
They sense the dawn breaking for a brand, new day
How I long for your embrace and passionate kiss!
Just being in your presence, that's enough. I thought you knew.

Content is adrift and I am a wayward soul
I long for someone to feel alive with!
My senses are deadened and numb to the touch
How can this be when I love you so much

is this?

is this what it's like when the one you love says goodbye

is this how it feels when the one you love doesn't love you
my heart is breaking in the silence we're creating
is this what it's like when the one you love no longer loves you
is this how it feels when the one you love is saying goodbye
It's a brand new day but why does it feel like yesterday
I'm on my way to another day lost without you
You may be here but it feels you are so far away
Do you care anymore when I show that I love you
Do you feel my heart when I tell that I love you

My world has shattered into pieces, can it be mended
Where did our love go? Has it ended?

The tears fall when we are apart
There it goes, a piece of my heart

You say you don't want to hurt anybody but it hurts

when....

Am I redeemed?

You are the one

Things don't get better before first getting worse

wait a minute, 1st things first

in my thoughts I am deeply immersed

What is bothering me, what really hurts

past is a power that I cannot let go

past is a Power that I can't let take hold

Refine my soul through fire like precious gold

Bare all my secrets for You to behold

You are the one who can set me free

You are the one who lets me be me

You are the one.

You are the one.

blurred vision

Out on the empty porch

my thoughts are my own

What am I fighting for?
This house is my home

rattle and disrupt my train

my purpose is to progress

Am I the one to blame?

damned to be in distress

tongue tinged with distaste

my face worn and weary

words cannot displace

the things done unclearly